I Wonder

Skyler James was born on July 1, 2016. He died on July 29, 2016. It was a hot day, a humid day, a day we will never forget.  Skyler would now be six months old and the hurt our hearts feel is still as strong as the day he made his way to Heaven.  As each month passes, I wonder how this could have happened to a precious little boy who was healthy and happy. A boy who just stop breathing. A boy who left behind a family who adored him. A family who struggles each and every day for a little boy who touched hearts with a forever love. A love we will have until each one of us makes our own journey to Heaven.

Dear Skyler,                                                                                                                                                          Today is Monday, January 9, 2017. It is winter and very cold. This morning while I was having a cup of tea, a beautiful cardinal flew up to the bird feeder. Your big brother helps me feed the birds when he comes for a visit.  He also likes to put peanuts on the deck for Jimmy Jo the squirrel.  Your big brother loved you with his whole heart, and he still does. He has a little puppy named, Pluto. Pluto loves to kiss everyone he meets.

Do you see your brother from Heaven? I have a funny feeling that you look a lot like him.  He has brown hair and big brown eyes.  You had brown hair and plenty of it, but your eyes were blue. Your brother became friends with a horse named, Snickers. He liked to ride him and learned all about the proper way to brush him and how to put the saddle on Snickers back. They became really, really, good friends.  Snickers trusted your brother and your brother trusted Snickers.

Skyler, I was wondering what your days are like in Heaven?   Who do you play with? Do you have any pets?  What is your favorite animal?  What is it like to hug Jesus?  I remember you telling me in one of your letters, that everyone sits on the edge of the clouds waving at everyone they loved. Each day when I go outside and the clouds are floating by me, I wave and throw kisses up to Heaven. Do you see me, Skyler? Do you feel my love for you?  I miss you, dear sweet great-grandson. I wish I could hold you in my arms and tickle you softly.  You are in my heart Skyler and I will always love you.  I will write you again on Valentine’s Day.  Until then, be a good boy and remember you are very special to me. Gigi

Dear Gigi,                                                                                                                                                               Don’t be sad. When you think of me, I think of you. When you smile, I smile. When you laugh, I laugh too. Yes, I like to sit on the clouds and wave and wave. I see you wave back at me and I giggle. Please tell my big brother, that I sit by him at school and saw him riding Snickers. I was with him when Santa came and I am with him when he cries.  Tell him not to be sad. I am happy in Heaven and have many friends.  The sun shines every day in Heaven.  Even on a sunny day, Jesus surprises us with a bright and pretty rainbow. Jesus can do anything! He can even make it snow or rain in Heaven. His father, God created everything and nothing is too hard for Him or His son.

When animals die they come to Heaven too. There are dogs and cats, zebras, bears, lions and polar bears. Gigi, all the animals that you see on earth, are also in Heaven.  I love them! My favorite animal is the giraffe. Their tongues make me laugh when I feed them leaves.  Yesterday five little kittens came to Heaven. I met them at the Rainbow Bridge.  I forgot to tell you that I met a cat named Lucy and a dog named Sam. They told me that you were their mommy and that they miss you.

Every day the Angels sing songs to us. Sometimes we listen and sometimes we sing with them.  Jesus is always with us, teaching us and loving us.  He is always with you too, Gigi. He is always with everyone. Today, He taught us about kindness. My brother is kind, I see how much he loves our mommy and how gentle he is with Pluto. He is also a good friend to the boys and girls in his class.  Gigi, Heaven is beautiful. No one is sick, everyone has a home and plenty to eat.  Tell everyone to be nice and help those they meet. I have so much I want to tell you but I will wait for your next letter. Two more things… What is Valentine’s Day?   And when I hug Jesus, I feel his heart hugging my heart. It feels wonderful!  Love, Skyler

My heartfelt thoughts……

Help others, be nice, love everyone, be kind to animals, trust; lessons from a child for each and every one of us.   How can you make a difference? Whose heart can you change?  Just maybe, we can all love a little more.  I know in my heart that Heaven is our forever home, and I truly hope that Gigi and Skyler’s letters bring you peace, comfort, and faith like a little child.