Today, as I was thinking about my story, a nagging thought kept trying to work its way into my mind. You know, those little thoughts of doubt that take us back a step or two, and try their best to rob us of our confidence. We all have had them from time to time. Sometimes it seems that the doubting thoughts, sign a lease, move in and stay until we had enough, and evict them. Sometimes, those doubts never leave and can often cripple us.

I have to be honest, I have had my share of doubts with my writing. But even before the pencil, paper, developing a storyline, characters, and wanting to make a difference, the doubts wiggled into my mind and heart.

 Ever since I was a little girl, my self-confidence has been tested. Sometimes, I could muster up the courage to keep going in spite of what others thought.  And sometimes I wallowed in self- pity, making little doubts balloon and become bigger than life. I have worked hard to keep those little robbers of self-confidence at bay. Sometimes I win, and sometimes I lose. It is something I work on every day of my life.

Honesty Take Two—  I believe in the power of prayer. My faith has helped me deal with many hard, sad times in my life. I trust God to lead me, protect me, and put me in a place of need each day. Every morning and throughout the day, I look up to heaven and ask Him to guide my story,  a story that will be just what someone might need to read, a story that might bring peace.

There is a little saying I created, and it goes like this; He leads, I follow and write.  Two hundred and forty-two stories later, I am still asking, He is still leading, and I am again hitting the keys on my computer.

 It’s funny how He encourages my story. Sometimes He will bring a memory to mind, a memory that I thought was buried, or one that has haunted me. A memory He knows others have experienced. Hence, the doubt story.

There is a beautiful piece of scripture that I really like; Trust in me, for I will never leave you.  Whenever Mr. and Mrs. Doubt rap on my mind, I grab hold of that verse and say it many times until the Doubters take their suitcases and hit the road.

Honesty Take Three—  My self-confidence is getting stronger each day. It doesn’t mean that I don’t second-guess myself and it certainly doesn’t mean that the doubts won’t try to sneak back in. However,  I know that I am loved even when my self-confidence takes a little nosedive, and so are you.

Always remember, that nothing is accomplished without taking the first step. One of the biggest lessons I have learned in my life is it’s okay to fail.  And I have failed many times. But through my failures, I have grown. My eyes see the beauty in everything and everyone I meet. My ears listen to those who need someone to talk to. My voice is ready to help those who might need a kind or, encouraging word.  And my arms are ready to hug the pain away.

I want you to know that you can accomplish anything you want to do. Believe in yourself, take one day at a time, and try not to be so hard on yourself. Ask God each day to guide you, and take my word He will. And if one door closes, another will open; never give up.  Remember, you are never alone.

 Honesty Take Four— I write because I love it and I want to make a difference.  One of my dreams was to be picked up by an agent; just one book. However, I know now that if I touch one person, then I am a success. It doesn’t get much better than that!

Published by cynthiajeandeluca

My name is Cynthia Jean DeLuca. I am a wife, mother, grandmother, and great grandmother. I believe in following your dreams and never giving up! Helping others is very important to me, for when we help others, we help ourselves. It is my hope to make a difference in the lives of children and grown-ups. My hobbies are writing, quilting and painting. I am a novice at all three but, enjoy them immensely. I grew up on a farm with no indoor plumbing and no heat in our upstairs. I love life and have a very strong faith. Working on inspirational short stories for grown- ups. Love to speak on topics that touch my heart.


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